not such a good day

last night was bad. husband swears he is not trying to hook up with other people, even though I know he is. I asked him why he wants to stay married, he couldn't really come up with a specific reason, just that he does. I applied for dshs again, hope to hear from them soon.

I am going to find another place to live, I need out of here. The only time i am even a slight bit happy is while he is at work or asleep. I don't want to live like that.



NOTE FOR THE DAY: Try to be understanding of others, everyone will be better off in the long run.

October 19 2009

Well, I survived the weekend. CJ is now 14 years old. He had an ok birthday but yesterday was horrible. We fought all day and he got his first taste of soap in the mouth. Okay it actually just got run across his lips, that was hard enough, I spent an hour after it crying. never again!

Tomorrow I need to call Highline and set up an appointment to talk to a counselor, plus set up a few other appointments to get my self out of this hell hole i live in and away from kids dad.

How do you deal with a spouse who, when asked a specific question, flat out lies to you?

Ok, back later or tomorrow, off to do another load of dishes!

Note for the day:Love like you want to be loved. At least then you know you tried!

October 4 2009

Got up, made breakfast, listened to kids whine...woo hoo fun day. finally got so mad at all of them they ran to room and hid, kids and their dad. yay, downstairs is all mine lol

October 3 2009

We went to Old country buffet today for brunch, then went to walmart and a couple other stores, still trying to get ideas....what to get the 14 year old boy...any one have suggestions?

October 2 2009

Took the kids to see zombieland today, it wasnt too bad I guess. Also went walking around the mall, trying to get birthday ideas for the soon to be 14 year old Caleb. He is really excited, for some reason. lol.

October 1 2009

Well, its a new month. In a few days it will be my wedding anniversary, big deal, not. Just another reminder of my most ultimate failure. well back to work on the house, hopefully I will be done with it soon.

sept 30 2009

Ok this not working crap is getting old, anyone need a cook? a babysitter? a typist?
I'm generally a nice person, or so I've been told, so why does life keep crapping on me?

Sept 29 2009

Today is not a good day....kids dad has started up again with trying to get with my friends. Wouldnt care but he doesnt want divorce and keeps saying he doesnt want to live without me.....whatever!

I just want someone to love me, is that seriously too much to ask?

Sept 28 2009

I am stalling on going to Highline College to find out what I need to do to register...seems like a lot of things have been going wrong lately and I'm nervous....oh well, its not like its going anywhere!!! time to help with homework

bye for now

sept 27 2009

Ok, so this one is going to be really short. I am still in a lot of pain from the Fair yesterday and I am staying on my couch for the entire day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

sept 26 2009

YAY its Saturday!!! Off to the Fair again, this time to look around. Well I thought it was going to be a fun day, but I was in pain most of the time, and kids dad wouldnt let me get a wheelchair. Stingy jerk! We had fun still and I survived. Got the boys $5 light sabers, so they were happy.

Night

sept 25

Not much happened today, worked on my living room, took care of sick kid. trying to get more tickets for the slipknot concert, with little luck. ok, time to help kids with homework

see you tomorrow

sept 24 2009

Well today we went to the Puyallup Fair, it was my second time this year, but the boys' first. They had a blast cause I managed to save enough money to get the unlimited ride bracelets. and we had scones. They went on rides while Mom sat and people watched or read a book.


bed time-more tomorrow

sept 23 2009-catch up

Okay, Blake had his surgery today, and all went well, as usual. No sooner did we leave the hospital than he wanted mcdonalds. Silly kid, but of course he got his wish. He thinks doctors are stupid when they tell him start out eating light foods.
he also hates that he cant go back to school right after.


ok im off for now, tomorrow is Fair day!!!!