Sad and depressed.

almost christmas

Despondent....

today

I need a job, need to move, need to try and get on welfare and/or disability. Can anyone help with any of the above? oh and also trying to figure out how to give my kids a Christmas.

today, and yesterday lol

Well last night was CJ's drumming debut, and it was awesome! He did such a good job! I can't wait to see the next performance, and now his little brother wants in on the action!

I applied for unemployment today, and after thanksgiving i am going to reapply for dshs help and try to start on disability stuff. Also need to hope that tax money comes in before feb so that I can take a trip to New York with the boys, to meet a friend of mine from London.

ok thats it for now, im tired.

Be open to new ideas, new feelings. You may just find something wonderful.

Today....

Well I havent been up to posting on here, so much going on, illness, pain....enough with the boring stuff.

Halloween was okay, the boys and one of their friends went to Fright Fest, with their dad. I stayed home and handed out candy. Hopefully next year I will be able to dress up. Didn't get to this year.

Now time to get ready for Thanksgiving and also figure out what I am making for who for Christmas presents. If you're reading this and you live near me and would like something, let me know!

Also have to get ready for Blake's birthday...my baby is turning 13......*sigh*

ok thats all for now.


Thought of the day: Make yourself happy, then others will be happy too, mostly.

not such a good day

last night was bad. husband swears he is not trying to hook up with other people, even though I know he is. I asked him why he wants to stay married, he couldn't really come up with a specific reason, just that he does. I applied for dshs again, hope to hear from them soon.

I am going to find another place to live, I need out of here. The only time i am even a slight bit happy is while he is at work or asleep. I don't want to live like that.



NOTE FOR THE DAY: Try to be understanding of others, everyone will be better off in the long run.

October 19 2009

Well, I survived the weekend. CJ is now 14 years old. He had an ok birthday but yesterday was horrible. We fought all day and he got his first taste of soap in the mouth. Okay it actually just got run across his lips, that was hard enough, I spent an hour after it crying. never again!

Tomorrow I need to call Highline and set up an appointment to talk to a counselor, plus set up a few other appointments to get my self out of this hell hole i live in and away from kids dad.

How do you deal with a spouse who, when asked a specific question, flat out lies to you?

Ok, back later or tomorrow, off to do another load of dishes!

Note for the day:Love like you want to be loved. At least then you know you tried!